i gues sometimes only a slap on my face can do things ba.....zhi lun came to me and told me tt i was a desperate man in search of popularity, and in my ques of popularity i offended many ppl unknowingly...erm tts wat he meant la i jus summarised it up for him. I did reflected on the things i have done and ya all the things he said were all my conclusions, ya i admit i didnt cherish lun as a fren so now nobody cherish me as a fren...i gues wat goes around comes around but lucky for sung he has the whole class liking him now...unlucky for me i dun have any frens now.....but is lk when zhi lun was telling me all these in my heart i was lk what is this fucker doin?coming to gloat at me? i mean lk get the fuck off, its just tt u are luckier then me.....but i held my emotions and jus let him say what he want since i oni felt so agitated bcause the words was from his mouth..but the words was right, i am trying to chg but nobody is der to see my chg, evrybody is afraid of getting close to me, evrybody is shunning me so wat can i do? i tried cherishing zi jie as a fren, but he only treat me as a normal fren for that i am rlly sadden...well i gues all that has been said, my heart feels sore now so....erm bu gan yuan and sad...yawn~ i am tired let's try to forget the pain life has brought me and go to slp ba....