I HATE 12J!!!!i HATE JC !!!!EVRYTHING IS FUCKED UP!!!!!! kor told me me to go mix with them n zhi lun also told me to....i did go n mixed with them but all i get is me feeling left out. its so obvious they dun wan me der.....their a HAPPY grp of 6, each of them are happy n all they care is jus tt they are happy lk tt fuckin bitch ql!!!!!today at popular i went to read comics didnt realise they went out le, then in the end i dicovered they waiting for me outside, then there was tt bitch ql, she gave me a glare n i could see she was saying something loh....ccb u dun need to show me tt i m not wanted rit, i noe it myself u fucking whore!!!!go die la u look so OLD with such a ugly figure n a ugly face!!!! i wish ALLL OF THE BIG 6 WOULD DIE!!!!met an accident or wat I WISH THEY WOULD ALL DIEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!! zj is also jus one big bastard who jus can't admit tt jw is his best mate in cllass n he is a part of the fucking 6, n lk giv me words of hope when i was depressed...yet in sch all he do was stick with them n oni them!!!!!!its not funny loh u fucking pig alwas tok abt the incident in the mrt wer i flare up cos ur jus left me alone to sit!!!!!u tink its funny isit?its nt!!!u big piece of lard....tabitha jus think evrything is all abt her la, oni ppl concerning her she doesnt give a damn abt any1 esle, tt ugly slow eating short bitch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!then the others 3 shawn jw n sw all dun reply me when i tok to them, all they give is cold replies!!!!!3 useless bastards who oni follow around ql's ass....whenever i m not der i see ur laughing all the way when i am there ur jus keep quiet lk hell shit!!!!!!!wat is this man!!! i tried ok i tried to mix with them, i smiled i tried to tok , i threw away my pride n wat i get in return is NOTHING!!! zi jie's bdae i was the one who tot of buying him a cake, it was ME leh, MEE!!!but no one rlly notice my effort i wanted to make him happy tts y i tot of the idea to give him a surprise...the other fuckers jus gave the money!! nobody saw the effort i made for my frens, they are not my frens they are jus a bunch of fucking hypocrites... now nt oni i cannot hang out with anyone frm the fucking 6, i cannt even hang out with zhi lun they all....all bcos of hu is all bcos of tt cb see zeng liang!!!!he snatch away my best fren in class n then come quarrel with me thinking he was rit....den jus made it impossible to hang with zhi lun they all. wat vry guilty tt he chiong into me n lun de frenship, hypocrite la!! give me all these crap! then evrytime at class giv me attitude n tok so loud to show me he is so freaking happy!!!gd la he ruin my life partially n he himself is happy la....tt fucking horny son of a bitch!!!!!he had not rit to question wat i said abt him n tabby loh, nor did he had the rit to question tt short bitch abt the things when he didnt even have the balls to tell her he like her.....wtf is all this man...i did soo many things for him loh tt cb kia...in camp i was the one who lend him my shoulder help me carry things....n then he forgotten all this shit!!!!then he got into a fight with the ex big 5 n then he was lk a fucking depressing soul for a period of time before he snatched away zhi lun!! n now i m all alone....why WHY IS GOD SO UNFAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!why zeng liang has a support but not me??? why why he could find a good fren in these kind of hell, whereas i have to stay in this hell....why why mus it alwas b me, why do ppl alwas have thing to say abt me???/dun tt bitch ql alwas tok abt ppl too? why does she have frens n not me??? i came jc in hope to finding new frens, why god WHY MUS U TAKE ALL THIS AWAY FRM ME withing a few mths???evrything was so good , why mus u do this to me???wat do u want frm me? u want my life isit then take it take it !!! mum makes me feel so much better, mum gives me the warmth i need to carry on, even though sometimes i rlly hate her for calling me to do things...her laughters gave me the str to carry on, to want to live ....but why mus all these things happen to me when i came to jc for a new hope....even when i knew i would struggle i came to jc to look for frens...why god WHY MUS U PLAY WITH MY LIFE LK THE WAY U DID IN SEC 4?why all these had to happen to me ? now all these bonds of frenship are stronger, and no one wants to be my fren no one will walk with me to the interchg, tok with me whenever i go, laugh with me...there is nooo one~ hw could all this hav happen? wat r u doin with my life god? pls tell me..... who can help me!!!!!!!!! do u ever feel lk breaking down? do u ever feel lk out of space? lk somehow u jus dun belong, and no one understands u.... u dunno wat its lk, when nothing feels alrit, u dunno wat its lk to be lk me!!!
TO BE HURT ,
TO FEEL LOST ,
TO BE LEFT OUT IN THE DARK!
TO BE KICKED WHEN U"RE DWN!
TO FEEL LIKE U'VE BEEN PUSHED AROUND!
TO BE ON THE EDGE OF BREAKING DWN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AND THERE'S NO ONE DER TO SAVE U, NO U DUNNO WAT ITS LIKE~~~~~
WELCOME TO MY FUCKED UP LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!